Two Days Before You Die

Originally published on Medium.com on Oct 26, 2019

How We Know Infinite Love Is The Law

Two days before you die, is it reasonable to chase money? To fight over property? To lust over fancy cars? To destroy nature? To hate anyone? To discriminate against anyone? To steal something?

Two days before you die, you do no focus on self-preservation anymore, nor do you think of belittling others. You do not worry about past mistakes. You do not worry about the future. Your head lightens up. You realize it is pointless to even think about yourself. You just want to enjoy your life, which requires giving up all unnecessary thinking that makes your head heavy.

Two days before you die, you experience a kind of bliss you felt when you were a child. You did not know anything, and it did not matter. This is a state of not taking yourself too seriously. You now feel the laws of the universe because the clouds of your ego (your memories, knowledge, etc) begin to dissipate. You begin to see the truth because you are no longer imposing your observations/perceptions on it. You are no longer just an observer but also the observation and the observed. You again become a participant in this cosmic dance that you veered away from when you matured enough for you to play a game called the self or the ego.

Two days before you die, you feel a deep love for nature and everything natural, birds, insects, grass, and of course, people. You start to feel your deeper connection with the Universe. The Sun, the Moon, and other astronomical aspects feel more real. This is heavenly bliss, free of ego. You suddenly recall being born this way before your ego led you astray.

Perhaps, this deep love for all things in the Universe is the law of infinite love. By law, I mean something that stays true at all space and time coordinates, omnipresent, and ever-present. Focus on the self is why it became background noise.

My Christian friends struggled to love and forgive people. Churches had told them to love but had failed to explain the nature of love, how it is done, if there is anything to be done. They struggled because they tried to love. The act of trying evokes a trier (which is the self/ego here). The pushing out, the self-regulation pollutes actions with the self, making it selfish, not selfless. The evocation of ego here is a denial of the higher law, which is love already. Behind the clouds of ego/self was love already.

Love is not an action verb rather a state-of-being verb. When told to walk or eat, you can actually walk or eat. When told to love, you cannot do anything, because there is nothing to be done in love. You can only be in love or not be in love. He who invented "fall in love" probably understood love because no one falls on purpose. There is no such thing as a faller. Fall happens to people. Similarly, you can't love so long you are trying just like you can't focus on a teacher you are trying to listen to. Your attempt is a manifestation of your not being in the state of attention. When you are actually listening, you would not even know that you are listening until it is over. Therefore, you cannot do the loving but only be an object of it. You can only allow yourself to be in love by giving up trying and the trier or yourself. This divine love has always been here, no different from laws of physics operating among stellar objects and inside every inch of your being. The moment you try, you evoke your ego (your sense of self who does things), and separate yourself from the Universe, its laws, and as some might say, from God.

I invoked death to stimulate thoughts on what is behind the ego. There are only two times humans are naturally ego-less — at birth and at death, when they do not know anything and when they give up everything they know. In between, they get blinded by ego. Truth becomes background noise but still remains true.